Now that she's gone I'm finding it difficult to enjoy the things it once made me the happiest. It doesn't matter what it is: the changing seasons, a coffee shop, my favorite blended coffee drink, my favorite T.V. show or just a beautiful sunny day. The only word that comes to mind is numb. As much as I wamt to love these things again, I don't want to love them without her. She is like a drug to me, enhancing everything to the point that I cant help but to enjoy.

It's been only a week and while she still in my life she is not in my company. Exploring the world and sharing her life with others, my one and only is showing the world she really is. She is also showing myself that what the poets of said really are true, "distance makes the heart grow fonder". I may miss her but the love I have for her is only become more ingrained and Who I am.